Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Ups and Lows

I believe, life is like a roller coaster, life is similar like a "heart beat diagnose thing" in hospital *I don't know what they call it :p! I believe life is always about ups and lows!!!

My dad said, if your life is flat, no pulse, no beat, no graphic of your ups and downs life..that means you're dead!

In life, we need to feel what "sad" is to enjoy "happiness", we need to see our "past" to learn what is our "future", we need to get "angry" so we know how to make limits of our "patient"..its all graphics of life.

That is exactly what i feel now, when I'm about to quit from everything, when i cannot stand it anymore, when i feel that i couldn't have strength to climb up again in my low positions...

I found hopes, hopes that can lifted my spirit up, hopes of better future, better ways, better wishes and better life.

I am Lucky..Alhamdulillah ya Allah..i am lucky..i can be what i am now is because of Your Uncountable Blessings and Gifts..Alhamdulillah wa Syukurillah :)

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

"Breakeven"

"Breakeven" - The Script :(

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
One still in love while the other one's leaving
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no

I'm an Orange Panther

Yupps, thats what i found out from this website called Doubutsu Uranai, it can describe your personality based on date of birth...its fun indeed!

You are Orange Panther, who is emotional and gentle, but are also fragile and have graceful atmosphere.
Inside, you are rather proud, and have inner strength.
Your personality is passionate, and will not give up what you have decided half way through.
You have perseverance.
You are not very skilful, and believes you are dependent and weak minded yourself.
You have great talent in coming up with new ideas and creating things.
You have will power to challenge anything, but tend to lack the last push.
You don't become inpatient even if you are put in a difficult situation.
You have a capacity to find a way to overcome a difficulty with calm.
Your negotiation tactics are brilliant.
In daily life, you are influenced by your preferences, and may act unreasonably.
You are also calculative, and become persistent.
Nevertheless, you are sociable person, and can be passionate on things you do.
You have a quality to be a leader.
You are rich in originality, and can come up with new ideas from existing things.
You can find better ways from them.
After marriage, you can be obsessed with your children's education.
You may find something worthwhile to do out side your home.

Go try your self up..!!

Super Early Resolutions & Welcoming December

Sebenernya aga telat juga sih bahas bulan Desember, secara sekarang aja udah tanggal 6. Well, tadinya gw udah pingin nulis-nulis and kicaw-kicaw dari tanggal 1, tapi apa daya..penyakit "malas-diawal-bulan" had hit me hard, sampe-sampe gak kepingin ngapa-ngapain..bawaannya "Bruno Mars" melulu...LAZY!!

Padahal kan ya, kalo akhir tahun gini semua orang bawaannya heppy melulu..soalnya udah mau ganti taun lagi, udah kebayang donk yang bakalan nerima BONUS??!! belum lagi yang akan celebrate Natal and Tahun Baru, pasti udah pada heboh kisrah-kisruh nge-plan mau melewati pergantian tahun dmana, sama siapa dan sebangsanya! Pokoknya pasti ngerasa excited banget deh!

Tapinya itu gak ada pengaruhnya samsek sama gw and tetep aja gw merasa gak terlalu semangat akhir tahun ini :( First mungkin karena nasib jadi anak baru dikantor yang boro-boro bisa nikmatin jatah cuti, dapet aja juga belum! terus secondly, karena rencana melewati akhir tahun sama si BBP terpaksa dirubah karena dia musti pergi dadakan..*curiga sayaah!! and thirdly, most of my friend lebih milih untuk melewati akhir tahun dengan senang-senang, pesta pora, hura-hura, rame-rame...well, u may called me an old fashion! but honestly.."im just to old for this stuff" -Lethal Weapon's Quote

Oleh karena itulah, makanya, akhirnya gw bener-bener blank untuk planning taun baru..no bonus (Insya Allah adaa..amiin) no cuti (gak perlu juga sebenernya) no plan! So no wonder donk gw gak semangads!

But hell, akhir tahun masih panjang perjalanannya koq, masih ada 25 hari lagi..we never know what would happen later..that is exactly what i feel about next year plan..kita cuma bisa ngejalanin aja!

But eniwei-enihow..bukan berarti gw gak punya rencana or resolusi buat next year juga..malahan gw termasuk salah satu dari sekian banyak orang2 yang suka bikin resolusi se-rasional-rasional mungkin dan bertekad untuk mewujudkan setidaknya salah dua dari list resolusi itu! BUT at the end, gw juga menjadi salah satu dari orang-orang yang sukses "FAILS its own resolutions"...*tepokjidat

Padahaaal yaaa...gw taun depan udah mau 30 looh (*curcol dengan tatapn puppy eyes), but im not complaining, toh semuanya udah ada yang ngatur..jodoh, rejeki dan maut hanya Allah SWT yang punya kuasa. Gw percaya manusia cuma bisa (lagi-lagi) berusaha. So apapun hasilnya nanti, gw ikhlas..*BIGGRIN

So thats why untuk mengantisipasi pengharapan gw yang "takutnya" terlalu tinggi, how about if I just simplify it, make more "reasonable" resolutions, yang bisa di achieve sesuai kemampuan..intinya sih lebih rasional laah

Nah abis ngakak-ngakak baca blog si Lei ini, gw copas dikit deh link yang dia kasi, isinya lucu jugaa :P

its The Resolutions Simplifier
Cara pakenya juga gampang, tinggal ketik resolusi kita and klik si tombol biru, nanti muncul deh hasilnya...

Reaksi awal gw? Ngakak...mikir sebentar..merenung..senyum-senyum..nano2 deh :p

So here's my super early resolutions in a simplify way :p